NiRRaD

hey

Fri, 21 Mar 2008 12:31:06 GMT

i just read my 4th or 5th entry back.. "i'm going to do a better job of keepin up with this thing" HA HA.. almost a year ago.. i'm a dumbass sometimes.. FUCK IT, LEAVE IT IN. i'm kool with it if u are..

hello ALL!!

Tue, 11 Mar 2008 08:50:58 GMT

tomorrow will be my first moring completely sober in as far back as i can remember and it's staying that way. EVERYONE should check out Adam Green he's an awesome singer from NY, NY. his newest single is Morning After Midnight, Great stuff. plus his voice is sexy as hell.

fucking subject lines

Tue, 27 Feb 2007 08:53:11 GMT

well it finally happened when i least expected it to happen. i am dating the most wonderful person i've ever met. she knows what i'm thinking, she can complete my sentences, aaaahhhh, she's the person i've been searching my whole life for. like i have a lot of best friends that are great people to be around and make me feel good and all, but this, this is different. i am so... so... well yeah. lets just say i'm exuberating machismo.

the rock songs i've written

Mon, 26 Feb 2007 03:46:34 GMT

Over and Out:

Sometimes i feel so used
Yeah i feel mistreated
I'm aggravated
got the weight of the world on my shoulders
I could use a break

Slowly fill the void
That you left behind
Go ahead and close the door
I'm not coming back again this time

All i've asked for in the past
Has come to bite me once again
When i'm feeling down and out
You've gotta spite me one more time

Every time i take a step
In the wrong direction
I've hurt myself again
Falling faster than i ever have before

Over done and over rated
I'm so over all this shit
Just let me clear my thoughts
As i hang my head out to dry
One last time

Miss Understood:

With me baby what you see is what you get
put your eyes on the prize and don't regret
grab the bull by the horns, don't hold back
take 2 steps forward and not one back

nobodys opinion matters to this girl
always screaming at the world
secrets safe kept locked away
gain your trust and you walk away

so full of hate i do not question
whats up with all the aggresion?
nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
nowhere to go, shelled up inside

cannot win the battle within
grit your teeth and start to grin
cannot fake what you did not make
take the time to recreate

open your eyes, see the lies
no matter how hard it seems you try
to start the race, create the pace
insanity over-rules this place

wanna run all bets are done
the time is now, it has begun

Gone:

Sadness lingers in my brain
causing conflicts, gone insane
wish i could just float away
but here is where i have to stay

Somewhere Someday i wish i could
Somehow Someway i knew i would
just the simple thoughts aside
move along i knew you lied

I wish you the best, do the right thing
i just hope i get to see you again
no secrets kept, trust was key
now your gone, sad to see

I wish again just one more time
before my thoughts are left behind
I said i wish again just one more time
before my thoughts are left behind
i wish you the best, do the right thing
i just hope i get to see you again

waiting:

oh so long i waited
all alone i cried
oh so long i faded
all alone i died

i've been sitting here for oh so long
you said you'd call if something went wrong
i've been praying for you to come back
i have a tendency to cry when i lack

i've been sitting here drenched in tears
i've been sitting here drinking beers
i've been crying for oh to long a time
i didn't know that love was a crime

oh so long i waited
all alone i cried
oh so long i faded
all alone i died

i've been sitting here locked away from life
i thought by now we'd be husband and wife
i've been sitting here for oh to long
i'd like to know what went wrong

day after day i sit here and wait
day after day my mind fills with hate
everyday i say you'll come back
everyday i cry because i lack

oh so long i waited
all alone i cried
oh so long i faded
all alone i died

Lightning War:

I don't think i think at all
Pushed back up against the wall
when i walk i always fall
maybe i should start to crawl

lightning war is when bliss has gone free
there ain't no time for serenity
watch your back from democracy
the only thing here is anarchy

maybe we are all alone
locked inside our broken homes
why should we be on our own
somethings are better off unknown

lightning war is disturbing me
there ain't no time for me to be me
everybodys causing misery
so fuck the world completly

Saugy Sandwiches:

Walking to the store i was hungry as hell
Austin and i we wanted Taco Bell
but we decided to get a sandwich for 2.99
said ok i guess that'll be fine

Got back to the hall and i bit right in
it was the nastiest saugy sandwich that i ever bit in

SAUGY SANDWICHES

Not wheat, not rye the bread was white
tomatoes were red so i said aight
and got the sandwich for 2.99
said ok i guess that'll be fine

SAUGY SANDWICHES

Hearts raced as we walked down the street
couldn't wait till we got to eat
finally we got to open that baggy
bit right in and that bitch was SAUGY

SAUGY SANDWICHES

so this goes out to all of ya'll folks
before you get up all of your hopes
and get the sandwich for 2.99
THAT SON OF A BITCH, NO IT WON'T TASTE FINE

SAUGY SANDWICHES

long time, once again

Tue, 20 Feb 2007 22:04:04 GMT

growing pains once again, figuring out life... no-one ever said it was easy. or fast. ain't that the truth. well i'm glad its all coming together though. i've realized that music might be my passion, however it might have to be placed on the back burner until i can have a house and a stable environment. i'm not forgetting my first love in this world, i'm just coming to a rationalization that maybe stabling myself isn't selling out or anything like that. wow that sounds really fucking dumb. anyways, i'm going to do a better job of re-up-ing my LJ so to all my peepz that read this shit. i appreciate it. keep it kool. keep it real. till next time.

Darrin (Bo)

Tue, 06 Jun 2006 07:10:41 GMT

sometimes i wish i could just take a second chance at my past and not screw life up. then again i also don't regret anything in my life i've done because it's made me who i am. so here i stand at a cross roads do i regret my past and forever hold myself there, or do i move forward knowing that tomorrow is a new day and new days are forever infront of my face. today might be yesturdays future but todays future is always tomorrow and tomorrow is another day, i will die another day and it might just be tomorrow, but i'll have to live till tomorrow to find out.

the one and only

hey

Tue, 06 Jun 2006 00:45:19 GMT

since my last entry i have party party party party'd myself out!!!! a weekend affair, should have been longer. oh well. i'm such a dork though. oh well F#CK that SH!T.

Sat, 03 Jun 2006 02:22:26 GMT

don't u wish you could post a comment bitchs!!!!!!!!!!!

oh well to bad, nobody i know is kool enough

Wed, 31 May 2006 17:32:53 GMT

The good times are killing me.
Here we go!

Got dirt, got air, got water and I know you can carry on.
Shrug off shortsighted false excitement and oh what can I say?
Have one, have twenty more "one mores" and oh it does not relent.

The good times are killing me.

Kick butt buzz-cut dickheads
who didn't like what I said.
The good times are killing me.
Jaws clenched tight we talked all night,
oh but what the hell did we say?
The good times are killing me.

The good times are killing me.
The good times are killing me.

Fed up with all that LSD.
Need more sleep than coke or methamphetamines.
Late nights with warm, warm whiskey.
I guess the good times they were all just killing me.

Got dirt, got air, got water and I know you can carry on.
The good times are killing me.
Enough hair of the dog to make myself an entire rug.
The good times are killing me.
Have one, have twenty more "one mores" and oh it does not relent.
The good times are killing me.
Shit-kicker city slickers who all wanted me dead.
The good times are killing me.

Get sucked in and stuck in late nights
with more folks that I don't know.
The good times are killing me.

The good times are killing me.
The good times are killing me.
The good times are killing me.
The good times are killing me.
The good times are killing me.
The good times are killing me.
The good times are killing me.
The good times are killing me.

Tue, 30 May 2006 20:25:25 GMT

i'm clueless when it comes to the opposite sex. everytime i think i have them figured out some shit happens and shows me that i have no idea about women. sometimes i wish i could just die. it would make everything better, however i know that that's not the answer to my questions. who makes the rules of the relationship, the guy/ the girl or niether. i'm not sure, but whoever makes the rules should damn sure make sure that all parties involved understand these "rules".

the one and only

rant

Tue, 30 May 2006 17:52:57 GMT

i've been sitting here for oh so long
you said you'd call if something went wrong
i've been praying for you to come back
i have a tendency to cry when i lack

i've been sitting here drenched in tears
i've been sitting here drinking beers
i've been crying for oh to long a time
i didn't know that love was a crime

oh so long i waited
all alone i cried
oh so long i faded
all alone i died

i've been sitting here locked away from life
i thought by now we'd be husband and wife
i've been sitting here for oh to long
i'd like to know what went wrong

day after day i sit here and wait
day after day my mind fills with hate
everyday i say you'll come back
everyday i cry because i lack

oh so long i waited
all alone i cried
oh so long i faded
all alone i died

blah blah blah blah

Tue, 23 May 2006 17:18:29 GMT

holy crap here's another entry in my livest of live journals....

i'm here and i'm dieing..........
if u get it, u get it, if not then suck my peter with a limp lip....
OMFG..... this kid is crazy..........i think i'm slowing going further and
further insane in the membrane......however i don't even know what happened yesturday to scare me into forgetting what happened the day b4 yesturday......

well thats it, i'm outty 5000
the one and only,
Bo

holy crap i've returned from the depths of hell

Fri, 19 May 2006 23:13:22 GMT

thats right lady's and gents step right up and see Bo

nobody in Mississippi has seen this short hair woderboy since almost an entire year ago, where did he go, what did he do? find out when u ask him urself bitches....

the one and only,
Darrin (Bo)

Mon, 27 Sep 2004 18:42:59 GMT

Mew - Snow Brigade

You are ambitious and devoted, which means that you
can accomplish some amazing things. Once you
decide that you want something, you'll get it
at any cost. This can lead you to extremes,
though, so be careful - although you could do
some great things for yourself and world, you
could end up hurting some people in the
process. Don't let yourself be so blinded by
your goals that you forget what is truly
important to you. As long as you keep things
under control, you can be an incredibly
influential person. Don't ever stop striving!

What's Your Theme Song?
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Sun, 26 Sep 2004 18:57:32 GMT

well let us recap on an awesome adventure shall we,
friday night was supposed to be the begining of merricks b-day party,
but it didn't happen,
so Allison and i rode around for awhile,
we went to IHOP for some food,
mmmmmm food,
we then found ourselves at my cousins house getting a tad bit tipsy,
we left there and came back home,
fun fun fun fun,
saturday i was awoken to a phone call from my grandparents,
saying i had to get to the LB imediatly,
so i did,
the emergency was that my papa is remembering shit,
kool beans i guess,
but then i stopped by Nani's B-day party!!!!!!!!
fun fun fun fun,
saw Anita, Austin, BB, and Nani!!!!!!!!!
then i came back home for a few hours,
Anita called and wanted to hang out,
so Allison and i loaded up the pimp wagon and went on another adventure,
when we were leaving Anita's house she asked us to stop by Derrick's house so we did,
we decided to pick him up and bring him to our house for a few drinks then to work,
after we got back to the house it was time for the Vodka shots!!!!!!
then we decided to watch Final Destination 2,
fun fun fun fun,
after a few more drinks we brought Derrick to work and returned home,
when we got back there kyle and mike were here,
mike had pot so we smoked,
kyle was preparing for Rocky,
after i smoked i had 2 more shots then left,
we got Anita home right on time lol,
after we dropped Anita off we went to Rascal's lounge,
a bar in the best western on hwy 90 but by hwy 49,
but anyways i played guitar there that night with the keyboard player Mac Taylor,
Allisons mom Altha sang some songs,
and i sang some original songs,
around 3 or 4 we came home and listened to kyle Rave about how great Rocky went,
then i went to bed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sleep was awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!
more sleep needed i think,
well for now i'm outta here,

the one and only

oh shit one more thing,
i got my lip pierced twice the other day!!!!!!!!!!
keep on a rockin in the free world!!!!!!!!

the one and only

Thu, 16 Sep 2004 04:52:28 GMT

well boyz n gurlz,
there's a Hurricane!!!!
that means no work!!!!
yeah!!!!
yeah!!!!
O.K.!!!!
yeah!!!!
uhuh!!!!
DAMN!!!!
FUCK YEAH!!!!
skiddidabebobshoopshoobidyaaahh!!!!!
well i guess thats all

the one and only

(if this is all i have left to say,
then remember it well)
i had a 40 0nce
(well ok, i've had lotz of 40's)
but there's one in particular that is remembered,
i had a 40 0nce with MATT'n Sandy'n Logan'n Kevin'n I
it wasn't one of those special ed 32oz beers with a bag around it,
it was an Old English 40 OZ beer,
fuck yeah,
that was awesome,
those were in fact the dayz,
my only wish if everyone survives this,
is that we all come back together like the good old dayz!!!

the one and only

Sun, 12 Sep 2004 19:28:27 GMT

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Wed, 08 Sep 2004 22:10:04 GMT

WELL,
LOOKS LIKE I GOT A FUCKING AWESOME JOB!!!!!!!

whooT!!!!!!!

hell yeah,
i get paid really good for my credentials,
and i get paid so to act like a boy!!!!
fuck fuck fuck fuck YEAH!!!!!!!
this is the fucking coolest shit ever!!!!
well i'm out till l8er tonite you'se guys!!!!

the one and only

Tue, 07 Sep 2004 04:26:17 GMT

well for those of you that know the guy,
my grandfather (Papa is in the hospital),
pray or do whatever the fuck it takes,
i am not losing this one,
please help,
i don't know what to do,
i can't lose him,
everything was going so well,
well except for the job situation,
i don't know,
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck,
my entire family will be completly different if we lose him,
it just can't happen,
i will die with him,
well bye,

the one and only

Sun, 05 Sep 2004 16:17:08 GMT

well aparently i have brought SUBLIME back to the LBM,
is that such a problem that it hurts?
i think it's the best thing to happen to the LBM since i moved there MUAH HA HA HA!!!
well i guess thats all i really wanted to say today,
that and eat more nutz,
thats right eat more nutz from restrooms of 24 hour diners!!!!

the one and only

Thu, 02 Sep 2004 18:21:53 GMT

as everyone can see by my new LJ icon,
i can see all,
i know everything that goes on in the world,
MUAH HA!!!!
MUAH HA HA HA HA HA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

nah that was bordome,
here's my real update,

hey all,
not much has been happening for me l8ly,
but thats going to change soon,
i just know it!!!!
hopefully something will happen soon for my music career,
but if not i'll still have it,
i wouldn't give up music if my mothers dieing wish was for me to do so!!!!
i love MUSIC!!!!
it's the only thing that knows every single thing about me,
because it's so much easier to write a song about something,
rather than expressing it in regular sentences, ya know!
well i'm out,

the one and only

Thu, 02 Sep 2004 00:17:06 GMT

Grunge! You're all about the music and would even
turn your back on fame just to stay true to
your roots... You reached your high in the
early '90s, but you're still making some good
stuff! Keep rocking!

What genre of rock are you?
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Wed, 01 Sep 2004 05:20:52 GMT

YOU ARE A ROCKY GOD! You know this movie, you could
dress up as Frankie, and pull it off in style!
You can recite the whole damn movie and sing
every friggin song! YOU KICK ASS!!

Whats your Rocky Horror IQ?
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Tue, 31 Aug 2004 22:06:18 GMT

i'm sad to say that i'm probably going to be moving again soon,
i don't know if i'll be homeless again or what,
but i screwed myself over majorly this time,
i'm not getting kicked out of this wonderful place i call home right now,
it's more like something i've been thinking about doing since i lost my job,
my room-mates are both putting up with me as best as they can,
however,
i'm putting them through too, too, too much stress,
so if this acting gig that i hopefully will get doesn't work out,
or this workshop thing i'm doing on thursday doesn't work out,
then i'm putting myself out of here,
Kyle and Allison are way, way, way too kool to have to deal with this shit,
they live stressful lives as it is let alone to have to deal with me,
an 18 Y/O Young Man that comes along and mooches from them,
it's not like i mean to mooch off of them though,
i mean i honest to god am trying to get a job,
i shouldn't have fucked up when i had a job,
but i did so that was my fault,
and like i was saying,
this whole situation is my fault,
i figured i'd tell everyone,
so that when people don't here from me for awhile,
they'll know whats going on.
peace.

the one and only

Mon, 30 Aug 2004 05:49:59 GMT

omg i wrote guitar for all the songs i've been meaning too tonite!!!!
"Addiction, Inspire, Pain, Price to Pay, Tribute to 4:20",
I wrote guitar for
"Lost Boy" the other day!!!!
now i have enough songs that are GREAT in my opinion for an album,
now i just have to scrape up enough money to do so!!!!
rent and important bills first,
but i've been waiting 3 years,
since i taught myself how to play guitar untill now,
so i think i can wait alittle while longer.
i guess that is all i have to say.

the one and only